I am still like tat...

Wht mean tat...
U c my pic then knw lo...


but ther still got another meaning...
I still a terrible guy...
A very very terrible one...
y? I always make someone sad...
y? I brave to face tat problem...

y...y...y...y???
Am I a guy...
So like girl... shine like girl n scare like girl too...
I cant even tell my frien about tat problem...
cos is so malu...

If u don knw me... n I oso don knw u...
thn ths won happen...
If...If...If... haiz...
Me is so stupid...
cant even know ur feeling...
jus knw myself onli... I am so rude...

I hope I can solve tat problem... wth peacefully...
I hope tat we still frien... a very gud frien... n until tat day cum, we still frien forever...

If I very hurt U... I can onli said tat I'm sorry...
I knw ths soli is useless... But hw can I do...
Soli is the word tat I can told U...
Soli for the whole things I hav done to U...
Me n U r frien n forever one de...
If U saw my blog...
I hope U will knw wko am I said...
N U will knw wht am I write in it...

I jus wan to be frien wth U onli...
Please don thonk other...

No mood n so confused

Today I am so useless...

Today is oso my bad day...
I feel very useless...
I don knw hw to said it out...
But I wan to said soli to him...

Jus nw I don follow the promise...
because the situation don allow me...
n the things I prepared, it doesn't been used at tat moment...
when I wan to get one to u... she has stand beside me...

Jus nw I wan to tell u but the situation don allow me to do...
I jus be quiet because I knw I hav doing someting wrong...
I oso don wan tat situation happen again...
Which I hav fight with my frien... n we don hav more communication to each other like before...
Jus nw u so angry... I knw...
I write ths blog nt to blame u or said any bad thing of u...
I'm jus wan to release it out... n I oso wan to said sorry to u...

Another confused things is "she"
last week she find me but I don reply her...
my phone don hav any $$$... n I hav no face to c her...
ths two week whn I saw her... I don even looking at her...
I feel so shame... to looking at her...
Cause I hav making a girl cry le... I think la...
I knw I so rude...
I don knw hw to speak to her, scare her heart will sad again...
I knw she hav seeing my blog before... but...but...but... haiz

If I said someting wrong make u hate me...
I can onli said sorry to U...
I...I...I... jus wan to be frien wth u...
Pls forgive me...

My frien, If I doing someting wrong to u all...
Sorry...

今天心情有点乱。。。

是我自恋还是发神经。。。
她是喜欢我吗？ 是我想多了吗？
我自己也不知道。。。

如果是真的。。。
我。。。我。。。我。。。
到底该不该拒绝她还是接受她？

我到底该如何是好？
我真的很乱。。。

说真的，开始是我真的。。。真的。。。对她又感觉。。。
不过。。。我。。。不知道。。。那是恋爱的感觉吗？
我是一个宅男。。。没有谈过恋爱。。。
我到底该如何是好？

如果我拒绝她，她会怎样？
我不想伤害她，也不想被她讨厌。。。
我要怎么办？
我。。。我。。。我。。。
我承认我给了她wrong direction。。。让她以为我对她有意思。。。
如果真的拒绝她，我想说声：对不起。。。
我知道一句对不起是不可能的。。。
我真的要接受她？

我希望不是真的。。。
我想是假的。。。

我是好人 也是个坏人。。。
对我坦承 只为了朝他狂奔。。。
不能放任 所以放了。。。
这点痛我还能忍。。。

haiz...