Last Day In Kampar

The day I reach to Kampar, now is the time I need to leave...
So fast, the time flow...

I thought the day will come slow, but I was wrong...
Today I saw her, she look so down...maybe someone have bully her...
This is the 1st time I saw her in this two week...
I hope she will happy all the time... don let me worry during training time...

Beside that, I hope my junior of CS will always happy...
If I not mistaken, during the time or before to Melaka, all of U having a unhappy moment...
But all of this is past tense le, don put it in urs heart...forget it...
Why should we always remember it, we must go forward not move backward...
Hope u all knw wht am I trying to tell, always happy la...
When I came back, hope all of them will be better in anythings compare to 1st time I meet them...

I also hope that Mun Choon can change his style of now... I don want mention it. Hope he will find out wht hav happen to him nw and change it, if not I will too late...

Cg, maybe we have long time no see, we have become strange... last time any unhappy or happy things u will tell us, now u change le...I don like that feeling...
Anyway,hope u always happy too, don miss us la^^

To my frien who get a unhappy result in exam... don give up... study hard...
I will always on u all side, and let us GAMBATEH together...

To all my frien who having training with me GAMBATEH together...^^

Why I write like I will die soon, and write the...
Anyway, I jus hope all of my friend can always happy and don miss me so much...
haha...

I forget, U will not find me on9 de...
Call me or sms me if miss me...

Bac to my own life

Holiday is cum to the End...
Training time cuming...

My frien who go to training like me, don forget me^^
I will miss all of U...
Bt I knw u all don miss me de la...haha

To all my xia xiang junior, don always cry la...
must hapi everyday, study hard, n take care...
Hope she also...

My xia xiang frien, although we stay in other places...
All of u still my frien forevr...
If I do sumting wrong in the year whn I join the club, pls forgiv me...
Loo Jack, always hapi, study hard, n don forget me too...

philip, although I still cant contact u... but hope u always hapi
Hope u can recover...
friendship forever...

In ths three month, I think I won on9...
pls don miss me...

我的烦恼。。。

过了这个假期，我就要去training了。
现在，我开始怕了。
之前，我还很开心的，不过现在越想越害怕了。
残残残。。。 不止这样，我也要和我的朋友隔离三个月，我真的会想念他们。。。

还有到现在他都还没有联络我，他还好吗？
自从那件事的发生，我到现在都还没看过他。
他还有就读吗？我很想知道。。。
此外，我也希望他能够走出这个阴影。。。

好想她，好想她。。。
不知道为什么这么想她。。。
我真的中毒了。。。
这个假期。。。我无时无刻的回想起她。。。
问世间情是何物。。。

烦恼。。。烦恼。。。真的太多了。。。

Moment of Before n After~ Life without electricity~

今天的凌晨12点至4点钟，我体验了在没有电流供应情况里生活。。。
当天晚上， 我和一帮朋友聚集在dataran一起度过这个凌晨。。。

在哪儿，我见到了她，也不可以说很开心。。。
但，一看到她，我会有一点儿“开心”。。。
当天凌晨，我也看到了一个不开看到的事。。。
不知道要说什么，只希望“他”不会爱错她。。。

这个凌晨，如果一个人度过也可以说是一个很无聊和寂寞的时候。。。
因为在一个伸手不见五指的凌晨里，我们能做什么呢！

还好我有节目，不然我会一个人想太多。。。
那个凌晨，我和一帮朋友谈了很多我不知道的事。。。
我真的很差，我的朋友们发生了一些事情，我既然不知道。。。
但这些事情都已经解决了，我也替他们开心。。。

而我自己的，我还没解决。。。
不过都是顺其自然，是你的，就是你的。。。
一切随缘吧！

这个凌晨，我也发现了有一些人是这么的幼稚。。。
我也不想说太多，因为不管我的事。。。

在还没停电的那时，我参加了我朋友的生日会。。。
虽然很简单，但是一个很温馨的一个美好的回忆。。。
如果我的生日有人跟我这样庆祝，我会非常的开心。。。
但我知道不会有这一天，哈哈！！！

此外，我既然被一个女生讨厌。。。
因为我做了一件，其实不是我讲的。。。
我只是笑那个他，却引起这场风波。。。
这是我跟她第二次的风波。。。
第一次的时候，我知道是我的错。。。
我不应该开这个玩笑，我虽然跟她和好了。。。
但是，我们之间都有了一个“刺”。。。
加上这次的事，我知道我完蛋了。。。
跟她说对不起，不，和她的朋友说对不起。。。
我不知道。。。
只是知道，还有一个人是非常的要说一声“对不起”。。。
我不是很喜欢这样的感觉。。。
我要怎样办呢！

除此之外，还有一件事。。。
就是那个她。。。
我们终于开口说话了。。。
多的我的好班长。。。
他明知我和她之间有问题。。。
不过多的他的关心，我们终于肯开口说话了。。。
虽然她还是一样，face black black 。。。
但是我很开心。。。
因为我跟她在这个学期很久都没有说话了。。。
好，很好，非常好，越来越好。。。
我不知道她还当我是朋友吗？
但我希望我和她可以再次做回朋友。。。

Jus nw Jogging

Today I wake up early...
It is a long time I don hav doing exercise...
Today I call my friend, Rubby jogging together...

Today is very tired to me...
cause I have a long time don do any exercise...

After I finish doing exercise, I found tat my stress have release a bit...
Don knw why?
Maybe by doing exercise, I can forget wht I stress during this few week...
But I knw it is no easy to do it...
Someone said me tat... I put a lot of 感情 to her...
But I knw tat... is true...
During this few week, I realize tat I so 关心 her...
Although I knw me n her do not have a gud 结果...

But from nw on, I knw wht I ned to do...
n wht I ned to forces...

Every one ned to hav love...
love is important in live...
But love of friendship is more important...

想太多

是我想太多？
是吗？
我也不知道。。。

刚刚我要谢谢治业，他肯听我说心事。。。
这几天我觉得我很傻。。。
我既然会在意她说的话。。。

今天，她讲了一些让我很苦恼的事。。。
她从来都不会这样称呼我，而且还用很怪的眼神和我说。。。
很烦，很烦。。。
但是，当我讲了出来，我的心放松了一点。。。
（还没跟她说，只是跟我的朋友谈心事）
我还记得，每当这个时候，我总是有烦恼。。。
不是爱情就是读书方面。。。
为什么我不可以跟其他人一样呢！
过着，
没有烦恼的生活。。。

我。。。
如果我没认识她那该多好。。。
如果我没做那个职位，那该多好。。。
如果没有她的出现，那该多好。。。
如果。。。如果。。。如果。。。

我知道人生就要有这样的experience。。。
但是，我经历了太多类似这样的。。。
我不要。。。
神呀！救救我吧！

我如果说了，她会给我机会吗？
想太多了。。。

我的不安
那么沉重
只有你不懂

是我想太多
我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

我又单恋了。。。

回想一下。。。
我到现在没有和女孩子交往过。。。
只是有单恋过。。。
单恋是一件很辛苦也很心痛的事情。。。
因为只有自己一个人去面对，对方永远都不会知道。。。
我还是一样，不敢和她讲。。。
怕连做朋友的那个关系。。。都没有。。。
我有做过这样的事。。。她和我的友谊关系就这样的消失了。。。
如果你是跟我同班，你应该会知道。。。
我和那个她。。。很久。。。很久。。。都没有谈天了。。。
每当我看到他。。。我真的。。。真的。。。很想和她谈天像以前那样。。。
当不成情侣也能当好朋友。。。
但是，我没有勇气跟他说。。。反而对她黑黑(face)

现在我又单恋了。。。
这次的对象是一个很开朗的小女孩。。。
我认识她不是很久。。。却被她的笑容深深地吸引。。。
真的。。。真的。。。好久没有这种感觉了。。。
我。。。我。。。我。。。
到底要跟她表白吗？

我想跟她讲。。。
但是，他现在身边出现了一个追求者。。。
虽然我认识他。。。
但是我还不知道事情的来龙去脉？
是我吃太多的醋吗？

找一天我要和她说清楚。。。
但是，应该不会有那一天的到来。。。
我没有confident。。。
因为我当了很多年的单恋宅男。。。


她的笑容还在 我的脑海里
我不可能忘记 这一种感觉
整棵森林一直等着我
我却为她放弃那森林

对我唯一遗憾 是没有勇气
跟她说那一句 我好很爱她
若有一次机会 表白了
让他知道我 有多爱她

我爱她 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦 狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为她相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来

我爱她 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心 深深爱过却不会忘
我和她 不再属于这个地带
最初的天堂 最终的荒唐

如果还有机会 我不会放弃
利用那个机会 跟她好好谈
若那一刻重来 我表白
今天她会成我的 女友
（丁当-我爱她）

改的（prepared by Me)

A wonderful day^^

13 August is a wonderful day for me...
Although I didn't back to my hometown...

Today I have seat on the car for whole day...
Y?Y?Y?

This is because I need to go injection for my course subject...
This is the fifth time I go for injection...
I don like to go for injection because I scared...
Today, I tell the junior for the hospital put more the alcohol on my hand...
I scared the pain...
But after the injection, actually it is not pain...
haiz... I am so funny...

At around 7pm, I went to Ipoh Parade to have a happy moment with my friend...
This is the picture when we at there...


I also very happy... cause I have win Victor liew...for the bowling...
Haha...
We also watch a movie at ther...
It is nice...
It is a war movie...with many famous artist...
I mean the artist in tat movie...
I love the weapon which have use by the black skin American man in tat movie...
If the L4D2 have this weapon... I will choose it...
Walao... playing game... This month is the important month to me...
Stop playing la...
REVISION time must on now...

Sorry to my friend in Ipoh...
If I have time, I will go out with all of U...

I change le

wht tat mean...
My hair style lo...
don knw hw to said...
said nice... cannt...
said ugly... I don agree...
said like kid hair... I agree...
But if I use wax...
it will look nice...
haha...
I so zi lian...
Ths my new pic

I am still like tat...

Wht mean tat...
U c my pic then knw lo...


but ther still got another meaning...
I still a terrible guy...
A very very terrible one...
y? I always make someone sad...
y? I brave to face tat problem...

y...y...y...y???
Am I a guy...
So like girl... shine like girl n scare like girl too...
I cant even tell my frien about tat problem...
cos is so malu...

If u don knw me... n I oso don knw u...
thn ths won happen...
If...If...If... haiz...
Me is so stupid...
cant even know ur feeling...
jus knw myself onli... I am so rude...

I hope I can solve tat problem... wth peacefully...
I hope tat we still frien... a very gud frien... n until tat day cum, we still frien forever...

If I very hurt U... I can onli said tat I'm sorry...
I knw ths soli is useless... But hw can I do...
Soli is the word tat I can told U...
Soli for the whole things I hav done to U...
Me n U r frien n forever one de...
If U saw my blog...
I hope U will knw wko am I said...
N U will knw wht am I write in it...

I jus wan to be frien wth U onli...
Please don thonk other...

No mood n so confused

Today I am so useless...

Today is oso my bad day...
I feel very useless...
I don knw hw to said it out...
But I wan to said soli to him...

Jus nw I don follow the promise...
because the situation don allow me...
n the things I prepared, it doesn't been used at tat moment...
when I wan to get one to u... she has stand beside me...

Jus nw I wan to tell u but the situation don allow me to do...
I jus be quiet because I knw I hav doing someting wrong...
I oso don wan tat situation happen again...
Which I hav fight with my frien... n we don hav more communication to each other like before...
Jus nw u so angry... I knw...
I write ths blog nt to blame u or said any bad thing of u...
I'm jus wan to release it out... n I oso wan to said sorry to u...

Another confused things is "she"
last week she find me but I don reply her...
my phone don hav any $$$... n I hav no face to c her...
ths two week whn I saw her... I don even looking at her...
I feel so shame... to looking at her...
Cause I hav making a girl cry le... I think la...
I knw I so rude...
I don knw hw to speak to her, scare her heart will sad again...
I knw she hav seeing my blog before... but...but...but... haiz

If I said someting wrong make u hate me...
I can onli said sorry to U...
I...I...I... jus wan to be frien wth u...
Pls forgive me...

My frien, If I doing someting wrong to u all...
Sorry...

今天心情有点乱。。。

是我自恋还是发神经。。。
她是喜欢我吗？ 是我想多了吗？
我自己也不知道。。。

如果是真的。。。
我。。。我。。。我。。。
到底该不该拒绝她还是接受她？

我到底该如何是好？
我真的很乱。。。

说真的，开始是我真的。。。真的。。。对她又感觉。。。
不过。。。我。。。不知道。。。那是恋爱的感觉吗？
我是一个宅男。。。没有谈过恋爱。。。
我到底该如何是好？

如果我拒绝她，她会怎样？
我不想伤害她，也不想被她讨厌。。。
我要怎么办？
我。。。我。。。我。。。
我承认我给了她wrong direction。。。让她以为我对她有意思。。。
如果真的拒绝她，我想说声：对不起。。。
我知道一句对不起是不可能的。。。
我真的要接受她？

我希望不是真的。。。
我想是假的。。。

我是好人 也是个坏人。。。
对我坦承 只为了朝他狂奔。。。
不能放任 所以放了。。。
这点痛我还能忍。。。

haiz...

Gepo is my weakness...

Maybe I so gepo...
maybe I think negative...
maybe I so weird...
But I think they r saying me...

I knw de...
From nw I wont say anything again...
I will stop talking... n forces on study onli...
I scare saying something wrong again...
So, I will stop talking from nw...

Is time to study nw...
If ths sem I don pass all...
I will withdraw my course...
N work...
I think I not suitable in college life...after study until nw...
So... if I fail...
This is my onli choice...

O week...

Long time no write blog le...

O week... erm... ok la...
For me, I hav a very gud memory on those week...
Cause my Birthday is in those week...
n tat day got three ppl birthday in SWC...
Beside tat, My gud friend... philip, hav do a special to me on tat day...
Is feel gud for me, cause all SWC n new student sing hapi Buffday to us...

I also make more friend in there...
All the GF n OA n some of the new student...
The group of 14, is a very gud team... although they are so silent...haha
For the Philip group, erm ok la... they also is a gud team...
All the GF n OA are very tired at those week...
Me also la, cause I'm the one's who scream always...
Besides tat, my body colour hav turn more dark le...
I don know how to make myself become like last time...

O week, I hav a sad n happy moment at there...
This is all of nw... nex time chat la... no is c u all nex time la...
Here r some pic hehe...

Holiday le...

Last subject finis le...
Hope can pass all la...
And continue study here la...

Finally can bac to hometown to c my friend...
So miss them...
My friend don forget to call me out...
C movie, play game and other...

Finally can c my family...
And taste my mum cook...
So miss her cook...

Finally holiday le...
Don know can do wht?
Anrway... can holiday is gud la...

My friend who still exam...
GAMBATEH LA...

ANYWAY... C U ALL IN YEAR 2 la...
HaHA...

Holiday mode 1.2.3 start... haha

Unhappy day

Why? Why? Why?
Why I always like tat...
Always make someone moody...
I really don knw wht am I doing jus nw...
Why I wan to said like?
If I don said anything maybe this kind of thing will not happen...
Why I so rude...
When I said sorry to her... she reply "nothing la"
By seeing this word, I can know tat her feeling is not gud...
Why I always doing so rude things... I thought I hav change my rude style...
After this happen, I found tat... I still like last time...
"THE STUPID BOY"

Beside tat, I am so stupid... fail one more subject...
Why I cant pass it... Still fail...
Am I not suitable to continue study...
I think for an hour...
Withdraw... maybe is gud to me...
My boss said tat if I withdraw...
Wht can I do in future...
I think... think... and think...
Really I ned to bac to my cousin car shop to work for my whole life?

My mum always blame me... why I cant like my second boss... his cleaver...
why? why? why?
I answer my mum that he is he, me is me...
We are not same...
But she always take his name to argue with me...
Why she always thinks like tat?
I'm ur son... can u don always said tat guy something tat better than me...
And said tat if she know my result, she will never giv me a chance to study here...
I don know how to do now?
After she saw this sem result, can I still continue study?
I already know the answer... She will call me to work and stop study...
I don know wht she is thinking, why must like tat?

Nw I don hav any mood again...
Study... study... study...
I cant study anymore...

Maybe this is my last time to writing to blog...
Maybe this is my last time to playing FB...
Maybe this is my last time to playing MSN...
Maybe this is my last time to study here...
Maybe this is my last time to said gudbye to my friend...
Maybe this is my last time to said gudbye to her...
Maybe this is the last time I being at Kampar...

Maybe the things I worry will happen soon...
I ALSO KNOW TAT MY MAYBE WILL BECOME TRUE...

No mood... No life... Wan Died...

Today...
I got a bad mood...
Result too bad...
Angry with a guy saying the word like tat...
Wan to died...

This is the second time I being like tat...
I wan to said it out... so tat I can feeling more gud...
But I don know How to release the stress...
I wan to tell people, but don know who will listen it...
Because no wan listen to me... then I write it in my blog lo...

I am angry with one of my friend who got a high mark...
He got a gud result must be happy...
But~~~
Tat guy said why my result like tat...and said he got a low mark...
My result is so bad but he got the gud result and said it like tat...
I'm so angry... does he have brain... saying something like tat...
Does he know the feeling of getting such a bad result...
He is a sohai... getting a good result... and saying such no brain word...
I'm so angry with his word...

I don wan said such a bad thing of u...
But u saying such things like tat...
I don know what are u thinking...
U thought U are clever... I'm stupid la...

I'm no jealous...ok...
I'm only angry with Ur word...
I know u will angry... but I'm more angry than U...

I'm so... so... so...
Haiz...

Is Time To Said No!!!

Why I'm saying that?
Is exam time la...
Finally The day come's...
NO for A-station...
No for Max...
No for (C)C202...
No for Movie...
No for everything's...Except Someone la...
Time to Exam le...
All DHT1, 2, 3, 4,and our Lovely group 5...
This 2 week don go out play lo...Exam is more important la...
All my dear friend who Know me...Gambateh in Exam la...
JJ don going out to play la...
KAKA, U also same la...
High girl with brain sometime got problem de... don going out to play la...
STUDY TIME LO...Relax is O.K. but don play so much lo...
Me also same same la... haha...

Going out with my best friend

HAHA...back to hometown is good...
Can try my mother cook...
I also went Ipoh Parade with my friend...
Is have a long time no going out, playing with them le...
That day, we want to watching new movie...
But...
Haiz... Don have the movie we want to see...
Then we going for bowling...
We play 4 round, but I lose 3 round haiz...
I thought I can become a new PBP...
PBP stands for Professional Bowling Player...
But at the moment I also feel Happy...
cause I saw her...not the ones we always said de...
She become more beautiful... I'm so stupid...
Why that time don chase her when I am in the school?
But now I change my target le... But is ok la...
She is cute and beautiful....
It is a wonderful day for me...
This is my friend...

为什么，我这么，那么。。。

差。。。差。。。差。。。
我真的很差劲。。。

为什么？我考试的成绩会这么烂。。。
为什么？我认识的朋友大多数都好过我。。。
为什么？我要看人家的答案，不能自己做。。。
为什么？我只会安慰人家却不知道怎样安慰自己。。。
为什么？我只会鼓励人家却不知道怎样鼓励自己。。。
为什么？我变得更难相处。。。
为什么？我对人那么的坏。。。
为什么？我被人家觉得的很骄傲。。。
为什么？我变的爱花钱了。。。
为什么？我没人爱，除了我家人。。。
为什么？我爱上它，桌球。。。
为什么？我爱去电脑室，不是学院的。。。
为什么？我爱做一些傻事。。。
为什么？为什么？为什么？

到底是我笨/蠢，还是我无心再念下去/无法做个有用的人/无法如何做人。。。
我不知道为什么？有谁能帮我吗？
我到底是怎么一回事。。。
我真的。。。真的。。。真的要改变吗？
要变回像以前一样，那个笨笨的俊铭吗？
还是一个书虫，还是。。。

我真的很想有一个人能听我说这些埋在心里的心事。。。
我想发泄出来。。。
想一次解决这些为什么。。。

Sick Again

Haiz...
Sick...Sick...Sick...
Why this week always sick...
Is the weather in Kampar not suitable for me?
Yesterday thought eat the pill, Today thought can recover it...
But nothing happen... still in the sick mode...
Headache...
I must see doctor now...
But I cannot see doctor here... because the of he or she give, may not really cover my sick...
I need to see my doctor in hometown...
Now I very miss my mother cook... Because I have not been back to my house for 2 week...
I want to back to hometown... sleeping in my lovely bed, eating my mother cook...
I want to go home...
I want to go home...
....................

烦恼。。。

烦恼。。。
每个人都会有的。。。我也一样。。。
我烦恼的东西也蛮多。。。考试。。。钱。。。等。。。
但是，我最大的烦恼是爱情。。。
爱一个人，是一件很快乐事。。。
但是，我却爱的好辛苦。。。难道上天真的要考验我吗。。。
我对她可能已经不是朋友那种的关系。。。所以。。。
每当我的朋友提起她时，我总是避开这些话题。。。
为什么。。。
有时我连看她一眼都不敢， 我到底是男人吗？
我明明喜欢她。。。为何当朋友提起她时，我却没有勇气面对她。。。
为什么。。。
其实我很想说我爱她。。。无论你们怎样看我，我对她的爱是永远都不变的。。。
为什么。。。我就不敢说呢？
今天我的一个朋友放学时，说了一句“我们载着一对couple。。。我觉得很开心。。。
可能是我喜欢她很久的关系。。。所以我没有逃避那个话题。。。
但是，她一听到就很反感。。。
难道我和他是不可能了吗？
暗恋一个人是很辛苦的。。。
我希望我和她可以有进一步的发展。。。
如果我们只是。。。永远。。。是好朋友的关系。。。
我希望我能忘了这一切。。。将这段回忆埋在心里的最深处。。。
就将这件事彻底的忘掉。。。
其实假期时，我有这个打算。。。
每当我想忘了她时， 我的脑海中就出现了她可爱及开心的笑容。。。
让我很难忘了她。。。
难道她是我生命中不可缺少的一个重要的partner。。。

我希望埋在心里的这件事不会发生。。。
也希望我们会有一个美好的开始。。。

THE HAPPENING WHEN I PLAYING POOL

This is my second time playing Pool... is this word right...
Anyway, It is a good activity for me... always playing in DDS or A Station...
This picture is taken by my boss~Kai Xuan~
He is the one who like to taken the funny picture...
This my unluckily picture...WHY?
This is because I playing the skill until the leg 抽筋...
Beside that, when I'm playing this skill for second time...
My leg... My leg(抽筋 again)... Oh... so... very... unluckily...
After this happen, I won't and never try this skill again... T.T
This is very funny... for them... For me it is malu things...
But this picture ok la... I also love it... cause it can show my handsome face...HeHe...
One of my friend saw this picture, she ask me am I 抽筋...
How she know, later she tell me that my face have show the emotional...
OH MY GOD...

THE 2 DOG

If a person hav such BIG house, there actually will hav their dog...
Here are their dog, the cute one's is a male which name as "Dong Dong"....

For the black fur dog is a female and it name is "Angel"...

I don know why its name is angel... If I give that dog a name, I will give it as "Devil"...
This will be very cool... than name as Angel...
"Dong Dong" is a cute and friendly dog...
If have my own house, I will I would like to have a dog like "Dong Dong"

CNY in Tawau (SABAH)

This Chinese New Year, I have celebrated in Tawau...
This place is around the Sabah...
This is not my first time visit in Tawau... I have been here around three time...
But this time, we can celebrated CNY here... It is so interesting...haha...
If we want to come here, we need to take arround two hours to reach... of course by plane la...
After we reach the airport, we need to take more about 30 minutes to my NEW cousin house...
This is my cousin bangaloo...

Those are all my favorite model...
All of them are my collection...
U thinks I'm a kid...
U are wrong...
haha...

Those model I have collected when I still in FORM 5
Those are Gundam 00...

16 January 2010 日记

Today I have some happy and sad moment...
Happy is Account exam is finish... I thought I cant finish in time...
Luckily, I finish it le... although I cant balance the Final Account...
But overall I have finish all of them...haha...^^

For the sad moment, actually is not a bad news... I can said is 50% is good & 50% is bad...
Why I'm saying that?
That girl finally go out eating with us... I never saw her go out eating with us after Semester 1... today maybe is the first time with us... It is good news...
For the bad news is I cant have a communication with her...
Why?
This answer always repeated in my mind... Why?
I also want to know...
Maybe is that happening... after telling her that things... maybe
Or I cant control myself when she is in front of me...
All my friend said that actually is nothing de...
But I still cant open my mind...
If I still continue like that... maybe is my part 2 in my life...
All of u will not know what is the meaning of part 2...
part 1 is happening during I'm studying in secondary school...
I fall in love with a girl... when I want to said something to her...
I found that she have a boyfriend & I cant talking with her le...
That's time I have a very selfish boy and don't like to speaking more...
(Then later I don't even talking to her anymore...)
Now the part1 is continue and become part2 in my life le...
I don't want this happen but I still cant look her...
cause my heart still not function well...

Haiz... love is somethings happy...
but for me is a sad moment...
If I know she have eat with us... maybe I will not going...
I am so selfish... I want to see her but I cant talking to her...
what I can do... Maybe I have to take more time to forget those things I have done to her...

Now my felling is same like those two songs...

就是伤悲 衬托欢喜
就是酸苦涩 亦要细味
就是分开 叫我想起
路上有你 很美 苦渗着甜味（五味人生）

找不到人说 心里的寂寞
找不到人懂 怕黑的折磨
找不到命中注定 在一起的那个人
很多人都像我 一个人过生活

爱 只有简单笔画 却比想象复杂
恨安定爱变化 我爱过几个人
也被爱过几遍 却还是没能将幸福留下

爱 是不可数的吗 为何我还相信
它不是独行侠 我在等一个人
在等我的永恒 告诉我爱不单行别害怕（爱不单行）

What am I doing in a important period???

Why like tat de?
What am I doing...
Exam le... still going to there...
Why I cant control myself?
If I still continue, it will be the last time I study in here...
I cannot... I can... I cannot... I can... I cannot...
Somebody help me~~~Please...
Always said last time...
Still going to there...
Why I cant control myself... why... why... why...
Going there waste time & $$...
If I don go, maybe I can study better & solve my own problem in account...
Why I still go out to ply... Why... Why... Why...
This time I should not receive the phone call & sms
So that, I can release myself from going there again...
My friend, if u see my BLOG please...
Don ever call me again to going to tat place before the Exam come...
Please... please... please...
Is the time to control myself now...
I don wan fail in exam... I should not forget What my mum said it to me...
If I am a good student, I will control myself... I will study first & ply later...
But I'm not tat student, I must act like my little brother...
Who always study... not going out to ply when the important time is come...
I hope tat I will not same like the guy who have being as my roommate... he is the one don like study at all... now he must work hard... I don wan to become him...
Don want... Don want... Don want...
It's never... become like him...

A Grand New Year...

Exam is coming now... Don't always go out ply...
like going to A station with friend...
For me is the time to work hard...for my future
If not...is the last time I being in here...
I have make a lot of mistake before 2010 coming..
On 2009 of the last week, I have doing a very selfish things...
That day is the happiness & sadness moment for me, I finally tell she tat my felling...
I also fell sad after listen to the bad news... but we can still be friend...
Before that, I need to put down my felling with somebody before the exam coming. But, I will not give up...Because I believe tat the day will come...
What happen to me... Saying like tat... Exam la...haha....
This year, I want to change my lazy lifestyle after this final exam...
Anyway, hope all my fellow friend and DHT5 can have a good result...Me also la...^^